| Okay, so I really have a whole lot that I just want to get out of my head, and hopefully by just typing it out it will feel so much better. These past few months here in College Station have been so amazing yet so hard emotionally at times. And yes you guessed it it's because of 1 little stupid guy. I hate that I can feel so much for someone and have no clue how they feel about you in return. I know that God totally has a great plan worked out, but for real being single is like the story of my life, and all my heart desires is to be married, have kids, and be a great teacher. I mean is that a whole lot to ask-I guess in my case it is. I don't know why, but this past week the situation has just been so hard dealing with it, and I don't remember the rest of the semester being this hard. I mean, there are all these thoughts just jumbled up in my head, and it's so confused and crowded in there that I can't even think! I have taken all of this to God, and I know that in the right time he will answer everything....he has shown me that recently with Cho-Yeh and my calling there. But, still it is so stinking hard sometimes to just sit back and wait for him and his timing. I don't know, it's just been hard I guess, and being an education major and in my senior methods it has been so much harder for me, because honestly half of hte 40 people in my class are either engaged or married or at least dating someone. And, so being around that constantly this semester was hard for me. Other than all of this life is great, I'm on track with student teaching, graduation, and everything else, but for some reason that just isn't satistying and comforting at this time, and I don't know why. Okay, so honestly I feel like this post is dumb and it makes me sound superfical and what not, but I just really needed to get everything out and all the thoughts out of my head, so if you read this I'm really sorry that you wasted your time, it was more for me than anything else. But, on a positive note...I'm finished with school until January 8th!!! |
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| People I am very excited about seeing this weekend: Elliott, Lydia, and Joel! Yay for friends who love you! And thanks Lynzi for all your help-your the best friend I could ever ask for! |
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| Two busy but fun weekends planned here for nOvember-yippie!! |
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| No more certification tests until the Spring....unless I didn't pass the ESL one! Oh boy, now I can concentrate on the GRE!! |
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| Kindergarten tomorrow-hip hip hooray! I just love it oh so much!!!!! And, hey it's one of the things in life I can say I don't stink at. |
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